Suspense & Annoyance

Well Misty I did watch harry potter tonight. it was as good as seeing it over the summer. we watched the ending a few times, only because it is so good. i also guessed that it is bellatreax (or however you spell her name) that Mrs. weasley kills. when the movie was over james and i discussed for about a half hour about how he just wanted to tell me about the book. i kept telling him to shut up. than he might've let something slip about it but i'm not sure, but i slapped his head anyway hehe. he said that the cool thing that she does is make it so that nobody really knows if they all die or not, than he tried to cover it up that he didn't say that so i'm not really sure. so now i probably should be in bed considering it's after 1 and i have to get up really early to spend 6 hours with you know who. anyway i'm sorry that you're the one she picks on now, well i suppose besides carla, poor carla, i think she gets it the worse. anyway i know how it goes. i hope it works out for both of us to our favor so she doesn't end up screwing us over. did you ever notice that with her it's always got to be about her...i did this and i'm doing that and i'm gonna do that and i don't have time for anything and i'm very stressed and i got all this stuff done today because nobody else does anything. anyway c-ya sat. and we can vent some more. oh yea i forgot to ask you if your daughter's feeling better?

Well another week goes by in my dull life. I think that it has come down to us selling one or both our dogs. Yesterday was the last straw James said. They went psycho again and attacked each other. We think this was the worse one of them all. Trying to separate them was even harder than it has ever been. In the middle of trying to separate them both my arms and my finger got in the middle of it. So now I have a couple bad cuts on my finger and bruises all over both my arms. But at least it's winter and I can wear my long sleeve shirts to cover it. The left one is the worst. If I move it in certain ways the muscle hurts so bad.

I suppose we knew it was going to come to this. We didn't want to have to but they have some major jealousy issues. What's weird is they are totally fine one minute and than bam the next they're attacking each other. Like right now they are just laying there and playfully playing with each other. We knew we weren't going to be able to take them to Illinois with us though.

We will probably start by selling the black lab because he came along after Cedric. And we also just stuck over $300 into getting Cedric neutered. Which was a big waste of money considering the only reason why we did it was to see if the attacking of each other would go away. Well, that didn't work. Besides, Tylee is the bully. Since he's a black lab he is always wanting the attention. If we're petting Cedric he will come right up and plow his butt into Cedric pushing him out of the way. He's also always chewing on stuff that he shouldn't. Like just recently he chewed apart a cardboard box and than puked in his kennel that night. The room smelled nasty for like few days after. He still smells though too, we have to give him a bath, but that is a pain.

I guess I would rather have cats anyway. In the future I don't think I want more than one dog at a time. I just hope that we will be able to find a nice family for Tylee to go to. A family that doesn't have any other dogs preferably.

A Slippery & Cold Slope

Well, I almost thought I wouldn't be able to think about what to write again. But after going to school this morning I can find something to complain about. I don't even like complaining, but if I need to write something in here once a week and all I can think about is complaining, well than that's what I'm going to write about than.

So, what was with the school parking lot and sidewalks this morning. You can't tell me that they do not pay someone to salt the place. You could barely drive around because it was so thick. Than to try to walk was even worse because not only did you have to worry about it being slippery but there was nothing but tire tracks so it was hard to walk period. Than walking up that hill to get to class you could barely even see the sidewalk because of all the ice and since you're walking uphill it makes it that much more dangerous.

If they won't even salt that parking lot and the sidewalks they must protect themselves against lawsuits or something than. If someone were to slip and hurt themselves I know I would sue. Even if I was driving and ran into another car or another car hit me I would still go after the school because it is their fault.

Since I'm already on the subject of complaining about school, what is with it being so damn cold in there all the time. For most of the time that I'm there I have a thick sweater on and I leave my coat on and I'm still cold. You can't tell me that they can't afford to turn the heat up a little bit. Some of the rooms it doesn't even feel like the heat is on at all. I hate being cold.

Anything I could think of

I have no idea what to write about anymore. I have a pretty boring life. All I do is go to school and go to work and I'm too broke to do anything else really. I've had a cold for over a week now and I can't stop coughing and I've been sleeping like crap because of it. I still don't know how I'm going to write my paper and I didn't even do my report on my book for history and I don't even care. I might've had enough time to finish the book, but who knows. I didn't even know how I was supposed to get 5 to 7 pages on something I don't even understand anyway.

My two dogs can be really annoying sometimes. If ones not being stupid the other one is. We had to get one of them neutered because they would go psycho on each other. I mean like crazy wolf dogs snapping and attacking each other. Well, we pretty much wasted $320 because even after the surgery they still do it. So I'm not sure if we're going to have to sell one or what. The black lab doesn't eat his food ever. Sometimes he will go three days without eating. And you can't tell me he's not hungry when he goes outside to go to the bathroom and I find him eating his own poop.

I can't wait for this coming Tues. because season six of 24 comes out and I'm really excited about seeing it because season 5 ended really good and in suspense for the next one. Than the week after that Harry Potter five comes out and I can't wait, I've been wanting to watch it again ever since I saw it in the theatre.....Yes I LOVE the Harry Potter movies. Also that day the Bourne Ultimatum and Pirates 3 comes out. I never got to see the Bourne one in the theatre so I can't wait to see that. Pirates the only reason I want to see that again is because Johnny Depp is just so awesome and hot. Other than that the third one was a big disappointment.

I wish that I didn't have to do two years of schooling here. I wish I could've just done everything in Illinois. I'm so sick of it here. I hate my job, my husband hates his job. At least the days are going by faster than I thought they would. I can't believe it's already December. In a couple of weeks I'll be 24 years old and I still have about 7 or 8 years left of schooling. To me that's a long time. I wish that I would've know what I wanted to do sooner, but I guess this is the way it was supposed to go.

Good Bosses Are Hard To Come By & I Hate My Job

I've had five jobs so far and have not had a good boss yet. When I first started working at the place I do now I loved it and it reminded me a little bit of working at the holistic clinic in Madison. I knew my boss and thought she was going to be really nice and fun to work for. Well five months into working there I found out some stuff about her and it turns out she's not that nice. And she is always saying nasty things about certain people behind their backs. Now I'm working there eight months and I'm pretty sure I'm heading out.

First of all, I thought my other jobs were stressful and draining, well this one definitely is the winner. And it's not even that hard of a job. Well, when you have a boss that lies to your face and lies about you behind your back, it's not the best environment to be in. Also, that job completely drains the energy out of me both physically and emotionally. I go in at two o' clock every MWF and of course my boss is there until 3:30 if I'm lucky, but she usually stays later because she does not shut up. For that first hour and a half I'm there I can not get anything done because all she does is talk. And most of the time it's about absolutely nothing. I don't even listen to what she says anymore. And she talks to me about this stupid Mannatech product which she swears by and is pretty much making me sign up and get it. When she talks about that is when it is the most draining. Sometimes she has to talk her way through doing things; that is when it is the most annoying. Than there are the days when I come in and she's got the whole kitchen area a mess with like five things going at once and she expects me to finish everything plus she tells me like five more things to do. She is always getting in my way and messing up the way stuff should be done. Thursday mornings are the worse I think because she is there my entire shift and she is always complaining about all this paperwork she needs to get done but all she does is talk. By the time I get to school on Thursdays I just want to fall asleep. Well my boss isn't the only problem at work.

Some of the customers that come in there are soooo emotionally draining it is unbelievable. They think I'm their frickin' doctor or something...."If I take this vitamin will it interact with this medication I'm taking". I don't fuckin' know I'm not your doctor (excuse the language). Than you get the customers that want to tell you their whole life story and ask you all these questions and what they should do for this and half the stuff I tell them they don't want to do anyway because it costs too much or they won't be committed. Well, that's like an hour shot of my work time.

Also I'm the only one that does anything around that place too. There is two other clerks there working with me. Well, one doesn't do her job very well, and the other is hardly there enough days out of the week to remember what she is supposed to be doing. I'm doing all this stuff and baby-sitting the other girls making sure I clean up after their messes. Than it's really annoying because the girl that doesn't work there enough my boss just adores because she's a Chiropractor Technician and she's really into the natural health field and she thinks she knows all this stuff. Well this girl is always forgetting to do stuff. When I tell my boss the important stuff, instead of mentioning something to the girl she just says oh, well she doesn't work here enough to keep up with everything. I'm just thinking, what the hell is she doing here than.

I thought school was going to be bad. I don't know how much more of this I can take. Well, I'm pretty sure I have a way to get out of there. Back when I first started school my boss had once told me that when it comes time for me to sign up for classes next semester that everybody will have to work around my schedule so that I can keep the hours I need. Well, it turns out now that my schedule is going to be totally different and have to take all afternoon and evening classes. Well when I told her I would possibly have to do that she's like, well I won't have any hours for you than, I need someone to work nights. Well, I was going to try to work out my schedule, but I pretty much couldn't and I didn't care what she said anyway. If my not working there for eight months and her promise to me that I would have hours doesn't count for anything than that's the last push. I don't want to put up with her shit anymore. I just can't wait to tell her that I won't be available to work the times she wants me to anymore. This is my life and school comes first and if she wants to be a bitch about it, well that's fine.

Cats

I think that I am definately a cat person. I have two right now, but when I get a house I plan on having like six. The one is very cudely and affectionate. Whenever I'm laying down watching a movie she'll come right up by me and do her little paw thing on my stomach and just make herself comfy and lay down. The cutest thing she does is when she wants attention she will go right up in your face and put her butt in the air and start twitching her tail and butt, it's very funny.

I've had her now for about three years. My mom says she was a stray, but I still wonder if she got her somewhere to replace one of my cats that died. She never used to be an affectionate cat either. She also used to be very energetic, but now she's more lazy. She also likes going outside to scratch herself on the pavement.

Whenever I go into petsmart to get food for the animals, my husband always makes us go look at the cats. I never want to because it makes me sad that they are there and I just want to take them all home. All of the cats that I've ever had in my life have been strays. They just must come to me knowing that I will take them in.

I always hated seeing stray cats crossing the streets. I just want to pull over and pick them up, but I know I can't. I used to think that I was a dog person, but after having my two dogs now, I definately think that I'm a cat person.

Riverdance

River dance just amazes me. Ever since our band did a concert on River dance music in high school I've loved it. The way they play those instruments is so magnificent, they are very talented. Of course the dancers are the best. They move so fast and are perfectly together. They must practice religiously.

I told my husband that I want to see River dance at least once before I die. Well, he's like, that's nice I'm not going. So finally last Christmas he got me tickets to go see them. I was so happy I cried. He ended up liking it a lot too. He also got me River dance tickets for my Christmas gift this year, I wasn't supposed to know about it, but I accidentally found out because I found out that they were coming to Wisconsin again and almost bought the tickets, but he's like no, that's your present. I was mad that I knew about it, but happy that I get to go again.

I told him now all he has to do is take me to Ireland some day to see it there. If I could go back to when I was real little, I would probably take tap dancing lessons. I always thought it would be cool to be able to do that.

Scary Movies

They just don't make scary movies like they used to anymore. The Poltergeist movies are ones that really stick out that freaked me out. They make the movies Saw. They just came out with the fourth one. Now come on....the first one was great, that kid directing it did an awesome job. Than the second one was ok, but that kid didn't direct the 2nd, 3rd, and 4th. Well after the second one they just went downhill. The third one was totally pointless. They put a bunch of gory nasty crap in it and think that it's actually going to scare people. And what's with the fourth one. That jigsaw killer is actually supposed to be in it, but he died in the 3rd one.
Than they have to come out with those stupid movies like hostel and hostel part two. The hills have eyes was another one that had 2 movies. I haven't seen either of those but how scary can they be. I would see them as being more cheesy than anything. And how many Halloween movies do they have to come out with before they start getting old. But they know they can make these movies because they know people will go to see them. The movies themselves aren't scary, whats scary is that people now days actually want to see people get cut up and mutilated and thrown in pig guts.
I just saw 1408 last night. Now that was a good scary movie. That is how they should make scary movies. It freaked me out. Stephen King is one weird man, but he sure knows how to write a book. It doesn't even pay to see scary movies in the theatre anymore because most of them are crap. Now if they made scary movies like they used to, than I would.

Papers and Reading

What is with all the papers that you have to write in college. The only class that you should have to write a paper in should be English. I have to write papers in my music class about concerts we are supposed to attend. In the paper we are supposed to use the terms that we learn in class and how it is related to the music selection. So pretty much I have to try to BS my way through two pages of crap. Same with my history class, but luckily I only have to try to BS my way through writing a page of crap.
Reading in college sucks. In my anthropology class the only reason why I read the chapters is because we have to do tests on them while we read. But I don't remember a damn thing from it anyway. My history class I used to read the chapters, but I stopped because none of it was registering and after I read just one paragraph I had no idea what I just read. So why waste my time reading it when I won't remember. I have so much other stuff to try to get done.
I don't even want to know what it will be like when I go to Illinois and get into graduate. When I go on to getting my doctorate I'm sure it's going to be even worse. To think I have to deal with eight more years of this stuff. I never even liked school in the first place.

Weddings

Why do people have to have weddings when it is cold outside? I had a relative get married last week and they had it outside. They lucked out with having the sun shining, but it was still cold. I was cold with pants and long sleeve shirt and a jacket and the poor girls had semi-short sleeveless dresses. I went to one again yesterday which she got really lucky because it was such a gorgeous day out. I have one next month and the month after that, so it will probably be even colder than yesterday.
I hate the people who have weddings in fall or winter that there's a good chance that they could have some really cold cloudy crappy weather and when the day comes it's just a gorgeous day out, the sun is shining, no colds and not that windy. I got married in May when it's supposed to be warm and sunny and nice, but instead I got a day where it was like 40 degrees and rainy and cloudy.
I suppose weather shouldn't matter though, but it would help. Especially when you have to have all your pictures in the basement of a church. My brother will be getting married in December in a couple years and I'm sure he'll even have a nice sunny day.

Moving

Moving sucks. It's a lot of work and you never know what the weather is going to be like. Will it be really hot or really cold or rainy. It's lifting heavy things and trying to fit them through doorways or up some really steep steps or down steps. Hopefully you have people that want to volunteer to help too.
My husband and I just moved half of our stuff out of storage today, and of course with our luck it had to rain. It's about the sixth time moving. The stuff we had to move was mainly the big heavy furniture. We moved it into a different storage above his parents business. The only good thing about all the moving we do is that we already have big moving vans for it. My parents own a lumber business and they have two big vans.
We are not done moving yet though. We'll have to move down to Illinois for school again. Than I'm sure when we are done with school there we will probably not have enough money to get a house yet, you know after having probably around $300,000 in school loans. So we will want to move into an apartment. Than when we have enough money and are ready to settle down in the right state were we can practice our degrees we will look into buying a house.

Morning Drive

When I drive to school in the morning, this will sound kind of bad, but I'm pretty much out of it. It's just a routine by now and I just end up finding myself thinking about stuff. The other morning I thought about what it feels like to know that nobody has faith in you. Mostly the people that care about you and should.
My family pretty much doesn't care that I'm going to be in school for the next eight or nine years slowing working toward my doctorate in Oriental Medicine/Acupuncture. I thought since it was something big they would show they cared. I guess that because I dropped out of a couple different schools and changed my major they don't have faith. But, a good of the population changes their major at least once. I just didn't know what I wantedto do.
Now I finally know what I want to do and I'm very excited about it. I'm also very scared. I haven't been in school for five years and being back has really hit me in the face. I definitely have to get back into the swing of things. The two things that are allowing me to believe that I can actually do this is that I have to think more about how much I love what I will be doing more than about how scared I am if I can do it or not. The second thing is the fact that my family doesn't believe in me pushes me to want to do it even more.

"Kids"

Having dogs is like having kids. I have two dogs, a black lab and a golden retriever. The golden is a runt the lab didn't get as big as he should have. They are very hyper, energetic dogs. I feel bad for them now that I'm in school now though.
Three days of the week I have school in the morning and right after school I go to work. So they're locked up all day. The lab I have to keep locked in his kennel because if I leave him out he'll chew things apart. The other one has so stay locked in my room.
When I take them outside to play fetch they never retrieve very good. They're more interested in sniffing new things and peeing in every spot they can. Then when I take them for walks they pretty much are the ones that are walking me. I can't even enjoy the walk and the next day my leg and butt muscles hurt so bad.
When my husband and I move to Illinois for the rest of our schooling we might have to leave them with his brother out west. It is so hard to find a decent priced place to live when you have two dogs and two cats. We would miss them a lot but we know they'd be happy over there because it's a wide open area for them to run around and explore new things and of course lots of places to pee.

Why?

Hi, my name is Beth, but you obviously got that by looking at my profile. I'm 23 years old. I'm writing in this blog, not because I want to, but because I have to. My first blog is due tomorrow so I can't really think of anything else to say but to complain about how much I'm not enjoying school right now.

I have been out of high school for 5 years now. I have gone to MATC for one year since than, but dropped after the first year because it wasn't what I wanted. Now I'm back at school realizing that once again the years that you have to put in to getting your bachelor's degree are almost pointless. Most of my classes I'm taking this semester don't have anything to do with what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. What do I need to know about Western History for when I'm going to be studying Eastern medicine. What about anthropology, I don't know about you but I don't think that has anything to do with acupuncture or oriental medicine. But I still have to waste my money taking these classes. When I'm done at UW FDL I'm still not going to be done.

I will be going to Illinois to the school I will end up in. The first two years, however, will be finishing up with my bachelor's degree. So that means taking more of these classes. After those two years I'm positive it will get better though. I'm excited about doing this though because I finally found out what I want to do and I know I will be helping so many people. Also, I can't wait to rub it in certain people's faces that don't have faith in me.

So, yes I think think this is a stupid assignment. Than again that's my own opinion. Who knows maybe after 15 or so weeks I might enjoy writing in a blog.